sorrie but, new layout going be on friday///talked
new layout going be upload on friday..and i got to scan my drawing of sara (in anime version)….yes…sara is my sexy girl..lol…and yeah..the drawing looks “um..um….yeah”.lol…haha..i got 2 upload it to let her to see it…and yeah….sara…my “mizz emo friend”..yups…talked to her…and yeah…she knows everything …and yeah….i love her so much that makes me wanna see her..lol….later days
oOo…look..tomorrows new layout
im dead. take my body away now.
last poem
I don’t have anybody to talk to,
I don’t have anybody to confide in,
Even if I did, I wouldnt be able to tell them anything,
Because I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
I unscrewed a light bulb,
And crushed it with my fist.
I extracted the bloody shards from my palm,
and drove it into one of the veins on my wrist.
I washed my hands of all the blood,
I washed my mind of all the pain,
I cleased my skin of all the mud,
But the shards of glass still remain.
I wish I had somebody.
I have nothing.
Then, off in the distance, the bells stop ringing…
They’re gone.
two more days
in two days…i going someplace..and i might not come back
drawings
since sara’s friend “travis” wanna see tha drawings…i put it up right now
today..02/20/04..
today is really sucks…cause i dont know y sara is not talking to me…why sara..i know that you friend travis told me that you sick…very sick…..why…when you online…you wouldnt talk to me anymore…looks like you dont like me anymore? ::shiff:: i just really hope..you feel better than me…
today
all day today i was thinking of sara…i dont know y though…teacher ask me y…i told him…”nothing….just thinking of someone”…..later on today…i talked to travis (sara’s friend) about today…so yeah…i guess sara got to talk to travis or travis might tell her that i talk about with him….travis such a nice friend….not like my other friends…i hopefully that i can meet sara and her friends for the first time cause i wanna…and yeah…travis told me that when i gonna ask her out…i told him that i did…but she was busy..so that meand i think later on…my heart tells me go go for her…but somewere…my heart told me to hold back….i was soo confuse that i break down everytime…so yeah…sara i hope you read this….and oh yeah..i going post a pix that i draw today..but tomorrow i going upload it..ok…yeah travis.i going show you first
karl?
(jay updating)karl, where are you…..where you say?…
i cant take it anymore
i cant take it anymore……ahhh…i hate my life i really hate it………AHHHHHH i WANNA DIE NOW…..I WANNR LIVE MY LIFE As THE WAY WHEN I WAS IN 8th GRADE…..AHHHHHHH i wanna kill myself…WHATS WORNG WITH MEEEEE
you know WHAT!!!
YOU KNOW WHAT, I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANYTHING ALREADY…I REALLY HATE THIS ALREADY…SO LEAVE ME ALONE..IM F*CKEN WANNA END MY Lright now….IFE RIGHT NOW!!! AIM ME ALL YOU WANT…I NOT GOIGN FUCKEN ANSWER….”"You make plans to listen to a certain CD and cry all night. (Or probably just listen to it and end up crying anyway when you think of that someone…)”"
sara
….do you wanna meet me at alaz on thursday?bored…so i made this for sara …hope you like it…hehe..God bless
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| | ¸,.~°/ / V / (_) / / / | | |
| | / / / ¸,.~° / / / V /
,,.~° ¸,.~°´¨ `~ -.,¸¸,.-`,¸¸,./ ` .,¸¸,` /…./ `..,¸¸,.-` -.,¸¸,.-
me…(lol…why im even putting up pix of me…lol)
and soo…yeah im “”WIERD”" of putting pix of myself..lol..next up…JAYSON’s PIX…HAHA
mayanne
look theres mayanne on the left and angie on the right…lol..yups…thats mayanne all right…see sara that’s how mayanne look like now..:giggles:..ah..i going put more later on ok?
if you notice…
if you notice theres a mac icon next the the address of my page…and yes…lol..i love it…
Valentine Day
“happy/sad valentine’s day everyone..lol…
new banner
yes a new banner again..lol
i finally update again
all these days i had a break down…i dont know why but my friends and
sara helped me out…i need to change abit….not alot….just abit….hopefully i can be happy…and stay happy….even though it’s just on month and two weeks of breaking of with my ex…..sara helped me….and i thax her…..that’s y she’s “mizz rad friend”…lol….do you like that sara?..lol…
cut
m just 2 wek… i ave 2 go… i cant do it anymore… im trying 2 b strong, but im emotionally exhausted… i just wanna go… 1 part says “cut and itll all b ok” but another says “dont cut, cutting wont solve a thing… there is only 1 way out… and it lies in the medicine cabinet” y cant my life b normal?…..only two people knows this…and i cant tell who are them.
im dead,I found someone that seems to care that takes the dare to be with me.
But what I doubt, how long till I find out the secret that I was never what she wanted,
She only felt the need to dwell on my negativity.
She only loved me to fill my emptiness not because of me
why, oh why can’t I just find a girl that likes me for me
not the fact that I’m left out in this world full of maggots.
That chew me up and spit me out and feed me to the masses
Comments (35)
woh dude do you really live in hawaii??? i always wanted to go there
hope your ok!!!!! feel better. and yes i hate fake people. i can’t beleive i’ve surrounded myself with so many fake people. i almost turned into one of them! HAHA its a good thing i didn’t!!
pixie
hey, <3 the mix of the two people in the bannour. its rockin rad =) haha. and dont worry buddy i aint mad or nothing at u. i just been sick. but im getting better. gotta catch up huh? haven’t talked in a while. well we will so no worries. God bless kiddo
yep, being is a quiet place’s much better… alone… no one can hurt… nothing to run away from…
hey dere darkening emo. well jus returning the favor n giving you some props. well u sound pretty upset. i know how u feel about breaking up. i hate dat so much. its been about 5 months since we broke up n im still feelin down in da dumps. well im bored too so yah. k denz. SMILE
Hey you! Nice Xanga! Well tomorrow’s actually valentine’s day, but thursday was kinda like valentines day… my day was good! i didn’t get any material thing, but i got something better! haha… nah but was good… cactus? who gave it to you… sounds neat!
<3 Joanne
thnx fo da story haha but i meant scary story.. haha L8z
-tima-
Aww, hope everything gets better for you
<3 happy valentines day though!
xoxo <33
Happy/Sad Valentine Day 2 u 2 Karl!!!
Hello there…i must say…NICE CHANGE in layout… totally feelin tha black n grey… yup…it is such a “happy/sad valentines day…” yup yup. N-e ways…don’t worry…life will get better…so don’t think of the now, but for the future…^_^
ty for tha pr0psz… happy BLACK v-day to you too! x] hope you get better -syLv
rand0m pr0pz.. h0lluh bak.
SAD VALENTiNES FOR ME, BUT HAPPY VALENTiNES DAY FOR YOU! sorry about your ex..hey, just think of it as her loss. oh yeah..sorry yeah you get skillz! help me out sometime..byee!
happy vday to you too. do i know you or you know me frome someone? im j/w alright i gtgbye
sorry you had a bad day. hope it gets better. do i know you? <3
so pretty =) God bless
Hey da “I love u” ting is cute!
~Jammie~
dang, your page is soooo nice! i love it!
Man, if they don’t appreciate you, don’t even think twice about ‘em, its always GOOD< its just what you make it that counts.. Man, I hear you, And I care, laters
i wanna die too!! lets’ die 2gether
amber really likes the “I LOVE YOU” thing in your blog-ness. . .it’s really tite!! anyway, nice site! i love the click to enter thing in the beginning. . .so CUTE!! bye!!
aww…don’t drown in gloominess. remember? look for happy things. i’m sorry i’ve been sick. i haven’t been ignoring you or anything. i just haven’t been on as much as normal. call me up or sumthin. i tried to call u but no one answer. please don’t die. that would be so depressing. take care of urself buddy. God bless
hey man wer do you get good web codes?
hey! you draw really really good. . .did you draw all those pictures?? if you did, then they’re really good. . .if not. . .then they’re really good!! haha. . .anyway, i gotta go. . .bye!
amBEr
omfg your site rocks
dude don’t let go man, cause the world would be a more fucked up place without you, your an artist at heart man, god blessed you with that, don’t let his blessing die with you. Live on and live happy. If no girl will love you know that God loves you dude.
i tried my best to be a good friend. but i guess i’m just not.
God bless
you got a ku site, wats the name of the song playing???? well im jus leaving sum props. well im outz
peace,andrew
sorry i dont understand the quesiton…
God bless
why so mad at me for? geez…i put i cant be one good friend to u cuz u still wanna kill urself. meaning i did absolutly nothing. idk. u tell me what i did for to help..cuz i dont think i realli did. and killing yourself never solves nothing. i told u that too. but i guess it dont mean nothing.
God bless
hey hey karl i <3 silverstein to pieces!!! YARRRR!!! gunna be a good layout man. my fave silverstein song is red light pledge, its nice. promise me you will be there until the red light will change, i would wait forever.. i’m lookin forward to it. God bless
“take this time to find your tongue, a sorry excuse to stop your lies, the best 30 seconds of my life, my angel take your pills, my angel i sold your ring, and now your speechless, and now i can’t stop laughing, i didnt want it this way, i hope you’re happy where you are and i’m glad to say i put you there, who’s the one that’s laughing now, i’m the one who’s laughing now” — ASL!!!
YARRRR YOU’RE REALLY ROCKIN NOW!!! just get some saosin in here…
GOd bless
Yo, tell L:ohi I said “sup”
aww thats so sweet =)
<33333
God bless buddy and take care of urself
why do u always think im ignoring u? sheesh. i dont understand..i dont ignore anybody. i just dont im people. and i dont sign peoples sites. allright i do sumtimes. but im a myspacer…idk xanga bores me now. so i use myspace. but as for ignoring u…i dont. and i dont know why u think i do.
<33333
God bless