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from lohi’s xanga site: –

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school
means

shit…nothing…homework..shit…friends..books…classes…bull-shit
teachers..friends….DDR…

kiss my ass you mofo

muhaha…hopefully you blah..i dont wann put…unless you my other blog sn…

xandxthanxixdiex

my new xanga is xandxthanxixdiex…ill be updating both sites at the same time…

guess what?

nothing special….just one stupid update..new screenname…”xandxthanxixdiex for yahoo…wooaw”…blah blah..blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah …still thinking still thinking still thinking still thinking still thinking still thinking still thinking still thinking still thinking still thinking!!!!

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today7/13/04

today…was kinda kinky…cause yeah…me and sheryl was lock in one room for “7 MINUTES OF HELL/HEAVEN”..i wanted to “kiss” her…but yeah..i wasnt that happy to kiss her….but yeah..that time..i wanted to get really kinky her…you know what i mean..take off my clothes and yeah do on her..and shit..im not really myself anymore…since yeah..sara…that yeah…i was fucken depress thats why at shentells’s house i made like im so ass normal..but i didnt…jerwyn knows about it…but lohi them dont know until i told them that i not with her…but that time 7 minutes with an EXTRA MINUTE was ok…did i told you that i told that sheryl strip off her shirt..that time..i wanted to kiss her….did i told you that?..i wanted to kiss her..go on the bed and just kiss her…

today

today…funfacs….sheryl and i were handcuff cause me and her didnt “want to get lost” and that time..i was kinda…kinda honry…cause being handcuff with her makes me…yeah…lol..so yeah..i update laters…

man….

man im starting to cutting myself again…like i always do..man..sara..when ever you going stop this doing this to me…all these songs that i listening to is remind of you..your like slowy killing me..man i need my ddr freaks now….i rather die then seeing you…last time you ignored me the whold week…can tell that you wanted to get away from me…no wonder we was not ment to be..

to sara…

i found a new medicine that will tear you apart since we split apart…this is your fault…your fault you stop caring and loving me…

im…….(stupid test thing

Cyber! Awesome, you must rock…

AND

Bre@kd0wn?! And I thought I was the only one…

man..i need my ddr freaks now…

something that came up and i dont wanna talk about it…only jerwyn knows about…freaking crying like hell shit…summer dramas.

one month after…updated info

jerwyn, lohi, me

so yeah..that day..i almost gotten yelled at cause i didnt tell my mother and father that im going to one goodbye party or grad party…so yeah..that time was fun..jerwyn played halo that time..me and lohi was playing stepmania cause yeah i bring my laptop that day…the party was three houses away from lohi’s house..and yeah…she got kick out and stay with her friends/boyfriend’s house, we mostly bring food cause yeah..she dont eat breakfast..unless yeah she have money..but i still bring food just in case

ma-anne – standard

ma-anne is doing well and yeah..me, roni, and lohi went to her house on one of the sundays..ate some snacks over at her house, her brother (mark) is kinda kool in a really odd way..watch some parts of the movie “kill bill”..yeah yeah..moving on…just really hope that she hang with us sometime next week with crystal…

jerwyn – heavy

..man all this time i mostly hang with jerwyn..dont know…he has my ipod charger…and yeah..he always ask me if he wanna use it and yeah i lend it to him..cause yeah since he mostly calls me …but yeah..he’s odd in a odd way…wait that didnt make since at all..lol..but yeah…you see that banner ontop of my page….what is says?

lohi – heavy

yes lohi..i know..yeah…man yeah…..next thing you know i going call you sister for now on..lol..naa..its up to you….you like the most important person cause yeah..you made us really laugh alot…must be the mchicken with pickles right..lol..and your fav. drink..lol..but yeah..at lease you stay with a safe person now since your dad kick you out …but now…were like kinda taking care of you…even though my mom yells at me cause you have my dbz shirt.i always put “FRIENDS” on first in line…so yeah..take care and see you…lol..everyday..lol

Micth – light

yea yeah…another buddy of minds..cause of roni..lol..naa..dont know much about you though…but yeah..even though i dont know you alot ..were still buddys cause you look after us..that really kool.

Sheryl – heavy+god

– yeah…i known you since lohi introduce you to us that time…yeah..your awsome cause yeah..your good in ddr..unlike me..lol..so yeah..lol…hows your crush going on?…lol..with the kind…huh..huh..lol.just playing

josh – heavy

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josh..you owe me one buck..lol..yeah…i still dont know how i meet you anyways..lol..so yeah..this month was kinda off…since you meet me cause of ddr and yeah..and from roni too…freakin nasty guy…

Monty – heavy – (picture soon)yeah monty…we love you always…and yeah…lol..you owe me 2 bucks..lol…yeah. yeah but you going get paid this friday so yeah…keep it kool…just dont rush it….

ddr players yeah….man…i still trying to be ass good as you guys…cause yeah…you guys go for the words “heavy”…

Your love is… by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is…
Your kiss is…	breath taking
Your hugs are…	warm
Your eyes…	burn into my heart
Your touch is…	the only thing I desire
Your smell is…	amazing
Your smile is…	entrancing
Your love is…	eternal
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

man…

man my freakin layout is so freakin old…we really miss richard…and crystal….so yeah….i think by the end of tonight i going put up another layout..that i going to be using the last time..and update that dam whole thing again…so yeah…heard of the song called “remember you”

three things that make me happy..kinda

1st. – gotten a 1 free game(s)(7 total with lohi, monty, jerwyn, roni, me, sheryl, and this guy i just meet but didnt ask his name..lol) by our lovely dearest ddr friend “Sheryl”
2nd. – passed “Sexy Planet – nonstop mix” on “challenge/oni mode” and gotten an “B” for it
3rd. – spend time with my friends alot and i mean ALLOT OF TIME

* this time from starting tomorrow, i would give two of my stages to maybe lohi, sheryl or jerwyn cause yeah…there the best ddr people i known right now…and freestyling on ddr is the best…but frist..yeah …you gotta know which arrows comes next..lol..so yeah..thats about it…

a emoboy? or a ddr student?

so yeah..its all about ddr…and shit…spent most of all my money on ddr and items on the doller menu…and yeah…krap…startdard mode to heavy….gotten better on sexy planet…cause yeah..it was on oni mode…not the mode..the stage..yeah..that i played that on my last stage and i pass it with an “C” yeah…”C” for Kool……i love it..but yeah…im like so busy off for school….school was kinda kool though..in the night..for 2 dam hours so yeah..im giving up on my darkening “emo”…love sucks….trying to talk to sara but she mostly ignoring me right now..and im like ignoring her all the time…..i just wish that me and her connected really…im like having probelms with her…its soo off…wish she just really told me the truth cause im like giving up on her..and she’s like giving up on me..so yeah…..were not connected…..theres so many things that i wanna “do” with her…not do do it …but yeah..spend time with her and shit…but she dont wanna…i wonder why…we cant be girlfriend/boyfriend….but yeah…its sucks without..you know…blah…oh wells…but yeah..the main thing about this dam fucken blog that i just write right now is……lets just say “darkening_emo1″ is dying and shit…nothing works for me…and yeah….sheryl is my one of my newest bestest friend….lol..so yeah….i think me and sara…our thing and thing is over….for now i think until i resovle this thing….but please sara…i love you when i ignoring you…and i love you even though i have to drink and shit…and i still love even though things dont go right…so yeah…after that sara read this..i going change my layout..hopefully..today…

vendetta->?<-ddr

so yeah…ddr…yeah…list that people i know who can play ddr really well….i think?

Jerwin : lets just say that he’s tumbs up…heavy mode
lohi : “Freckles”dooo it…dooo it…heavy/standard/ mode
Ma-anne : “RHYTHM AND POLICE (K.O.G G3 Mix)” lalalalalalala….standard mode
Monty : “SO DEEP (PERFECT SPHERE REMIX)” waka laka waka laka…heavy/standard mode
Karl : blah weres my song?standard on x1.5 mode always
Sheryl : lets just say that shes really good
Richard : …we miss you…..heavy/standard mode

10:30am to 7:30pm

all day dance dance revolution of course….i been spending my money on ddr….about six to ten games…plus shadowing with my friend on heavy mode (that didnt last that very well)…played “NONSTOP MODE” the first time and got killed by jerwin’s amazing heavy steps…was thinking about dance dance revolution the whole day…have the song called “I DO I DO I DO” stuck in my head…that’s about it….going to kams tomorrow….spead my twenty dollers on dance dance revoultion extreme and bottle waters…or mybe stop by my cousin’s house to grab some bottle waters…that’s about it….and yeah…downelink

7.0 – 7.1 update?

7.0 to 7.1 update later on today…

sara

i wish that you could be with me, but theres so much
things going on, that you wouldnt understand cause you dont love me
that much as i wanted to love you, so forget about me and dont remember
the things that we talk about..maybe this is was a mistake of meeting
you, your killing me, i always think about you, during school, during
the time i go out with my friends, during when i sleeping, maybe you
dont love mer at all, and i dont think that we wont meet eachother
sometime, maybe never..i been dreaming and dreaming that we meet
eachother, but that’s only dreams sara…all i have is nothing,
nothing, nothing, nothing….

igettingsickofeverybodyandevenything iratherdieeventhoughmyfriendsstillcareaboutme

im getting sick of tired of giving stuff to friends when they not give back the stuff that lend them to them

i always

i dont know but i always been hiding something from
sara…and i mean..yeah..i cant help this feeling….it makes me soo
confused and makes me wanna tell her, but i couldnt tell her….cause
yeah..i couldnt..i dont know…i just wish i could tell her but yeah..i
dont know im soo coufuse now……i had these dreams about yeah…and
yeah..wouldnt come true after all….so yeah im stuck here sitting for
something to happen….im like pouring me heart…and yeah..mostly i
wish that i could die right away…but i cant…im i still telling her
that “im alright” but yeah..right now…im not feeling all that happy..

.

iMiniclip

yeah this is a miniclip that my friend take while we
was going to the computer lab…but yeah..couldnt see cause most of the
place in farrington i dark…no light..so yeah…”"enjoy”" this odd
clip that my friend took…tise clip is called..“vendetta to –> d.O.r.k.s//dream[ha]“

bug?

yes..while i was using the “internet eXplorer” while i was
checking on my site i found a bug…a nasty bug…dam you
microsoft..lol.yeah..i wonder how it look like on the mac [safari]
page…hmm..well i guess i have to wait.ok..yeah…comment me if you
see this bug “upward” on your internet explorer or bowser thing ok…so
yeah…i think only “aol users” have bugs while entering my site..so
yeah..aim me if you cant comment me…

newlayout

so yeah, new layout “feeling_want_to_die” and
yeah..that’s sopposed to be my new xanga name but yeah…my ibook crash
and it’s in the mainland fixing that problem..so yeah…that is my
picture..and yeah…is’i it kute?…haha lol..so yeah…i been so into
alot of things since then..and yeah…my grades…yeah..they are
good…got mostly two “b’s” and the other…well let’s say not that
good…but anyways..ii going been updating more and yeah…more changes
tomorrow since i have alot of pictures…so yeah..sara can see
them..and yeah..i going put more friends on this page..so yeah…just
comment me on this odd//fastmaking layout that i did today…ok thens
byes

karl

theme of layout is….//something that jayson dare me to do..//new song until upadte.

tomorrow’s
theme of layout is “When Broken Is Easily Fixed”….yeah yeah…it’s
from the band called “Silverstein”…and yeah…mostly some of there
songs are my fav….like..you know “smashed into pieces”….ahh..i keep
listen to there songs during 4th period and afterskool….”dam….what
ever happen to emo.sessions?….”….hummm….let’s see…..maybe after session.eight….ah….ok that dare…..ok…i have to do it…ok….i love you sara…….why
i love you so much? well, my friends have this wierdest thing that they
all wanna hang with you..uh…lol…why i even doing
this..lol…ok….you have good taste in music….rad short hair like my friends…likes tatu…julia yeah that one…you funny (not like my other 2 girlfriends)…GOD – always help you on things when you need him, even though sara not online always, i have god, im not alone…u,
you understand other people feelings, including
minds…..yeah…hehe…sara i know you read my page
“harhar”….changing layout friday…and yeah….enjoy this new
song….cause yeah the other one i had sounds “uh”….just listen to
this song until i update my xanga on friday

new layout tomorrow…

since
every homework done by tomorrow…we not going have homework…and that
means i can finally upadate my xanga…i know that i made sooo much bad
things that i mostly hurt sara for our relationship..and yeah…sorrie
that again…and yeah…tomorrow i can show the drawing that i made for
her…and yeah..i going post pictures of lohi and mayanne and others
tomorrow..i guess i need to call somebody tomorrow..cause
yeah…talking to lohi and mayanne is not enough….talking to
sara…feels that she right here talking to me…and yeah….sorrie
that i was mad at you….for no reason…

bleeding heart

i
know that i made sooooooooooo much mistakes to hurt/break our
friendship….and im very very sorrie what i did to you…and i should
make it up to you…all these days make me soo..uh…i cant say it…i
know your ignoring my messages that i text to you….i can see that our
friendship is over right? it’s really hard to lose a friend of
mind..and the comment that you put….i was mad at myself…the stuff
that i did that you dont want me to do…

mad
at people….not crystal, not jayson, not richard, not jerwin, not
mayanne, not lohi,…theres only one person that i didnt put up on
here….well…MUST BE YOU…YOU…uh…maybe you just moved on…or
maybe that you hate me…or..maybe “your tried so hard to be a
bestfriend, but now……”…..you know what already…killing myself
will SOVLE My FUCKEN PROVLEM RIGHT…