January 20, 2004
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to the people i have to say "sorrie" only to..:
sara : im sorrie for scaring you yesterday..and im sorrie that you worrie about me getting hurt.....i didnt being myself everyday night now.......and im sorrie...i hurt myself yesterday....two cuts.....im sorrie...really sorrie...i hope you forgive me.....i cried......i cried yesterday...and i should tell you.........
2 this person that i made her worrie
I talk to you everyday, and I want to tell you how I feel, but I can't, I hurt myself for not telling you, not expressing my feelings,
talking to you everyday just makes me want you more,
Maybe one day I will tell you, but I may be a day too late.....
somehow, im becoming a one winged angle
somehow, im becoming a one winged angle, dont know..why....all this happyness making me angery now.......Estuans interius, ira vehementi [Burning inside, with violent anger].......Sors immanis, Et inanis [Fate - monstrous and empty].....only one can clam me down......
darkness again...all alone again and i dont want it.....
i dont know..all these feelings i have for her are losing out..... dont know, is it really happy to just be single for awhile?.....dont know.........................all i just can do i cry.......i dont think i going be feel good when i go back to skool.... i dont know that we can be friends...nor lovers...i dont know.............again...alone..alone..i hate to be alone...I HATE IT..... darkness taking over me again....i dont want it......i dont want it.....save me....
upcoming odd things
---next layout is Prostie Dvizeneija...[simple motions...it's about loving yourself...]
---next after that...a loyout for her....[chika know who i like
---after that is NOIR anime
strawberry blonde mix with maroon red...equals =?
haha...today i color my hair again...yes strawberry blonde....hehe...mix with maroon red...equals to...?hehe...you tell me...hehe
Ya prodolzhayu prostie dvizheniya.....
Prostie dvizenija......is Simple Motions....haha...yes.........did some....yulia did it...mostly every boy did it..hehe...."Simple Motions, i continue".....if you wanna comment me....comment me my last entry....
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